Miss Monnie Baudelaire

Alt porn model on GodsGirls.com, business student, dancer, fan of the Legend of Zelda and World of Warcraft gamer & blogger. Check out my WoW blogs at www.pewpewpurr.com!

So I went out with Jeremy last night and got totally annihilated. It turns out he has a real life Kara chess event on the roof of his building.

So I went out with Jeremy last night and got totally annihilated. It turns out he has a real life Kara chess event on the roof of his building.

I had my second therapy session yesterday morning and it really cleared my head. By the time I’d left, I had decided I was going to end things with Craig for a plethora of reasons. The main one was we just didn’t want the same things in life. We loved all of the same things and shared opinions on almost everything. He made me feel things I’ve never felt before and supported my modeling and dancing and World of Warcraft, but that’s about all of the good there was. I never got bored of him, but it was only because I was constantly trying to please him and practically begging for his affection. I could never be openly honest with him about anything and as much as I tried to make myself trust him, I just couldn’t. Plus there were other things, more recently, like he just couldn’t make me orgasm during sex anymore. Plus he invited himself to my house at 1am for a booty call even after I told him to fuck off because I was trying to sleep.

So I got home and decided to see what bullshit his ex had been spinning about me on her Facebook and read the same “you’re a whore” crap as usual. It was great, it was just what I needed to give myself the courage to actually break things off. People can change, but it rarely happens. Cheaters will always be cheaters. He cheated on his ex with me (and a whole fucking tonne of other people) and he cheated on me with his ex.

What really shits me off is that one of my old WoW friends/guildies has been telling Craig’s ex a whole heap of crap about me and my relationship with Craig. It annoys me because I confided in her at the beginning of all of this and it was only thanks to one particular conversation with her where she told me you’re number one in life and you have to do what’s best for you and to go for it if it was going to make me happy that I decided to keep seeing him. The funny part is, I actually sat back in therapy and remembered what she said. I do have to do what’s best for me and being with Craig isn’t and will never be best for me. The statement that started the relationship and ended it. Irony?

Please put this on your status if you know someone (or are related to someone) who has been eaten by dragons. My wish for 2010 is that people will understand that being eaten by dragons is not something to be ashamed of. Dragons are virtually unstoppable and are truly terrifying. 93% won’t copy and paste this… because they have already been eaten by dragons.

If I do the opposite of what I want to do, I might start doing the right thing for once…

These are my favourite purchases recently, besides my PS3. I actually bought the top to wear for a special someone. The handbag and shoes were meant to match but the handbag as way more glitter. The shoes are more gunmetal. Yeah, I have ugly feet. I’m a dancer, what did you expect?

As some of you may know, I’m going through a pretty difficult time right now. When women go through hard times they change themselves, so I went and got my first hair colour at a salon since I quit hairdressing. I love it!

As some of you may know, I’m going through a pretty difficult time right now. When women go through hard times they change themselves, so I went and got my first hair colour at a salon since I quit hairdressing. I love it!

Here’s another one of my favourite photos. This one was taken by Halie Czapla when I was 19 for a website which never ended up launching. Look at how little ink I have!

Here’s another one of my favourite photos. This one was taken by Halie Czapla when I was 19 for a website which never ended up launching. Look at how little ink I have!

This is one of my favourite photos from my Splashy Splashy set on GodsGirls.com! Enjoy!

This is one of my favourite photos from my Splashy Splashy set on GodsGirls.com! Enjoy!